I am an addict and this is what I do. You can not nor will not change my behivior. You can not make me treat you better, let alone with any respect. All I care about, all I think about are my needs and how to go about fulfilling them. You are nothing but a tool to me something to use. When I say I love you I am lying through my teeth. You see love is impossible for someone in active addiction. I wouldn't be using If I loved myself and since I don't I can not and will not love you my children or my family.

My feelings are so pushed down and numbed by my drugs that I could be considered a sociopath. I have no empathy for you or anyone else. It doesn't phase me that I hurt you, lie to you, cheat on you or take all the money.

My behivior can not or will not change until I make a decision to stop using then follow up with a plan of action. Until I make that decision I will hurt you again, again, and again.

Stop being surprised about my behavior and the things I do.... I will always blame you because of where I am in my life.

Stop being surprised~~~I am an addict and this is what I do.