MONSTERS
Are you afraid of the darkness, does it make you edgy, make you jump?
Do you know the soul's darkness, the hunger, the need, the greed?
Out of the darkness of the soul grows the monsters, Fear, Doubt, and a monster called, Why?
They creep in slowly, like a clinging fog, wrapping around you, tightening steadily, choking the light.
They whisper hatefully in your ear, making you question, shaking your faith.
They block the sun, smothering the flame, Fear, Doubt and why, Three hateful monsters. Monsters that sit smugly on my bed.
They make me question. They point out my flaws.They make me insecure.
The monsters try to rule me, hide the truth, scar the soul.
BUT
I recognize my monsters, I can face them again today.
I can look in the mirror and brush the damning monsters away.
I can wrap myself in light, pushing back the shadows on my soul.
The darkness breeds the monsters, but with love, I can let them go.
TIME
Time ticks by......
Suspended by a reality.
Stagnant by a truth.
Time ticks by..........
Life flows, but living stops.
Dwelling in a distanced mind,
not touching or being touched.
Time ticks by.........
Counting minutes, seeking balance on shifting sands.
Silent desperate yearning behind a fine china mask.
Time ticks by...............
A willing prisoner to a principle.
A necessary sacrifice.
Always waiting, needing.
A bound spectre as the real world hums.
Time ticks by.........................
Blue 9/25/02
RAIN
Here i sit, listening to the gently falling rain.
I am wishing you were here.
I hear the soft patter and wonder if you sigh in your sleep.
Steadily the rain falls and I ponder listening to you softly breath.
The rain is reflective, causing a mood of trusting peace.
I hear the rain falling and I think of you again.
Wishing you were here with me, wishing we were laughing in the rain together.
PARADOX
We are a riddle. an enigma. We are happy, yet desperately sad.
Distant yet together.
Bonded by fate, seperated by circumstances.
We laugh hard, cry softly.
We share, but we hold some back.
We are a riddle, Life's paradox.
So very different, so very similiar.
Strange yet familiar.
We are a riddle, I have no need to solve. Blue 9/27/02
PLAY
For today, I want to take the day,
And go out side to play.
To swing high up into the sky, free and unbound by rules.
To bravely climb an stately old oak tree,perched way out on a limb.
To sit ontop of the monkey bars,and see forever, pondering tommorow.
I want to make mud pies, splash in puddles, and spin in circles til I am goofy!
to play hide and seek at dusk, laughin, chasing fireflies and puttin em in mason jars.
For today, just for today,I wish to be innocent once more, full of wonder, simple pleasures, bubbles and plenty of giggles.
TAG! You're it!
Wanna come outside and play?
OBSCURED
Tick tock.......Tick tock.
I lay in my bed, lonely but not alone
listening to the alarm clock ticking slowly,
A soft compelling cadance.
Time marches on.....
I can feel the coldness surrounding me,
Even though i am warm.
Sadness becomes a cloak of indifference
wrapped securely around the scared soul.
The refrigerator, it hums....
The television, it sprattles endlessly,
A comforting jabber, in a place where silent doubts hold reign.
One step off from the waking, needing world.
Walking through a self induced distance,
Feeling but not,
Knowing but not knowing.
Seeking a truth in a fog,
No luck.
