If you could
If you could peek , inside of me, and see my secrets, and see my dreams......
Would it scare you?
Would you back away?
Would it touch you....... that i dream of a day..
That i walk in warm sun shine, that i want to feel.....
All the things you bring me................... to touch....... to belong............ to be real?
If you could peek, inside of me, behind the masks. pushin aside the many views of me...... would you dare? To seek the truth. to find the dreams.........
Soft velvet, hard as steel...............inner self, dangles on a string, like faint hope on a silver chain,
it spins, darting glimmers into the darkness, shielded from the out side.... never to reveal. not to be seen.
If you could peek inside of me? and see my secrets, see my dreams.....
Would it scare you?
Would you pull away?
Would you fear the intensity of the day?
Or would you embrace the child with in, the one who dreams of belonging, the one who aches to stay?
Who wishes to walk in warm sun shine, who wished to be complete.
Sharing all her secrets, sharing her one dream?
If you could, just once, see inside of me, feel my heart, feel my dreams,
what would you see? would it all make sense to you? this impossible dream?
7/7/04
Blue
Feel too much
Somes days all i feel is way too much.
Some days, life is nice and on an even keel.
But on other days, the waves crash and fall.
The ebb and flow of time, and emotions we generate, they carry me under, i surface, i hide.....
Some days, I feel way too much.....
The pain blooms deep, it slips to the surface at the most in opportune times....
The tears silently fall. riding the waves of emotions..... feeling the invisible ones touch.....
One heart seeks completion.
One heart seeks to win.
Another heart seeks freedom.....
One heart seeks to muffle the din..... the not so silent rush of emotions.... the flood of humans dreams..... the over whelming tide of compassion..... the flood of man's greed.
Some days,.. all i feel is way too much... the soul aches, the heart sings.... it burrows deep.
To feel all the peoples fear. to feel all the peoples dreams. to know the hidden pain..... to want to break the invisible chains.....
Praying for numbness, praying for silence so deep, to buffer the soul from the over whelming tide, the crush of me.
7/7/04
Blue
What a game, people play. they hide their passions, buried , hidden away.
They walk thru their days.. smiling and play games, not revealing all their secrets, shielding their pain.
They keep their lies of comfort.........
They bravely smile...... silently sinning away
What a game,, people play. seeking answers to questions they dont see..... playing with partners, chancing all their dreams for what? A chance to fly free?
the human equation, what a load of crap we hide our emotions like a gaming pea under a old tin cup!
Do we dare be honest?
Can the others ever deal ? with real emotion? of how we actually frickin feel ?
The waves we send, they back off and run, nice and easy there, please hold it in!!!!!! i cant deal..... its too much!!!!!! The games people play , not caring with in!!!!!
Why bother asking if you cant handle the answer , just pass on by, dont ask me.... dont bother to see, if i am okay. just go play your little game.
smiling, i 'll just walk away...... silly games people play.
7/7/04
