I know so little about love. I was raised
from the age of 6 in a Jesuit boarding school
and haye never been able to come to terms
with it. It seems that all my live I have been a wanderer. I married in 1985 and was so happy it made my head spin. We had a beautifull daughter in 1991 who was born the day before my wifes birthday on the second of Febuary.
This happens to be my only sisters birthday as well as an important day in the Pagan callender
I had the joy of being the primary care for my daughter,Jayde for over a year.
Something went wrong, to this day I dont know what. A terrible divorce with horrifying accusations.As a result I have only seen my daughter rarely. My heart was so broken that I fear it is beyond repair.Now I fear love !!!!!!!
1st love
When I rise up in the
morning,my mind is slowly dawning, on the truth that I am falling,
In love with you.
With the love thats slowly spreading, from the sheets and tangled beding
My soul and heart are wedding,
In love with you.
With desire quickly growing and your bodies needs Im knowing, Im falling forward ,flowing,
In love with you
untitled
I swore I never would forget,
How you and I sang sweet duet,
With sunlight in our lives, but yet,
We still were parted !
Dispite the sorrow no regret,
Dispite the pain there is no debt.
But carved in stone the epitaph,
Died broken hearted.
In the courting I lost your hand,
Lost my mind when I was banned.
Now I reside in fairyland,
A place uncharted,
I was shattered like old porcelain,
And I could never smile again,
Dayze of wandering insane,
Wheeled and carted.
No circle closed to understand,
My fatherhood held on remand,
All my tears have turned to sand.
Im broken hearted.
Without.
Without support of a woman
And without the love of a child.
A man will forever be roaming.
A male will forever be wild.
Without the warmth of a homestead,
Without the hope of tomorrow.
In solitude he makes his bed
And covers himself with sorrow.
Without a cause for his duty
And without a feild to be ploughed
He canot know truth or beauty
Untill he submits to be bowed.
Marrage.
Dont get married mate
you sign away your life.
She may start out as your lover
But she ends up as the wife.
You can be a lion tamer
Or a soldier with a gun
But steer clear of marrage mate
Getting hitched uo aint no fun.
Ohh its fine when your romancing
Coz she plays the maiden fair,
Your her knight in shineing armore
Her dashing debonair.
Then her love is quite eternal
For you are her sun and moon.
But wait untill your shackled down
And she sings a different tune.
Your a moldy couch potato
With a penchant for the booze
And she soon begins to degrade
Every thing she saw in you,
And she takes with shrill complaneing
Every penny that you earn
And them denies you cigerets
Coz it Her money that you burn.
So dont get married mate,
Its very poorly paid
You start out lord & master
But you end up as the maid
Be a dareing great white hunter
Or assassin with garrot
But steer clear of marrage mate
It is a female plot.!!!!
Have you seen her in the morning
With her foundation on.
With that hairnet and old baggy tights.
Wonder where her good looks gone.
Then she needs a little loveing ,
To be told that she looks great,
Before she burns your breakfast
Slapping oatmeal on a plate.
And she treats you like her daddy,
Sits herself upon your knee,
So she can get you all involved
In her mothers misery.
You have to solve her problems
And you better not complane.
Or else she starts shrill screeching
And discovers a migrain.
So dont get married mate,
You will wish that you were dead,
When she grunts at you each morning
As she rolls out of the bed.
Be a spaceman, be a cowboy,
Undertaker.!!Write in verse.
But steer clear of marrage mate.
It is my family curse.
(this poem was inspired my l. rosselson)
Reborn.
Im reborn, I am whole,
Im compleat, still alive.
Iv returned from a vally
Where few have survived.
Where I ranted and raved
Chewed holes in the bit
As I serched for something
Or someone to hit.
I hated my lover,
My sister my wife.
To hell with all women
Who`v fucked up my life.
I was beaten and bound
Then nailed to the door,
I was leaking so badly !!!
"Cry pity no more"
But the night stole my sobbings
As I suffered alone
And I gibbered in madness
Before an old crone.
I staggered in sadness
Without a true home.
The rain was companion,
The wind was true friend.
I imbibed my salt tears
That flowed without end.
But feet found a footpath
That my eyes could not see
And I crested the high peak
Of mount misery.
I was barly, green gold.
I would not be destroyed.
Like wild river I rose
Bringing life to the void.
When I fell on my side,
I covered the earth.
As I entered the mound
I prepaired for re-birth
The Vally.
Deep within dry desert sands,amidst hard heat and jagged rocks.
Discovered I an Emerald land, undisterbed by a hidden loch.
Chains of foothills formed either side,meeting where they merged with mountain.
Twas there beneath the ravens glide,that I found the fabled fountain.
I quested for the "Morragan" and for the chalace that she kept.
To put to rest my sorrows and awaken hero that had slept.
No tounge relates or can concive perfection of my paradice.
Where sun and moon together weave salvation for my sacrifice.
Rising through the tufts of heather and flowing orr damp downy grade.
Here my springhead of endeviour.My source of valor undismayed.
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